It seemed to be just an ordinary day in the garden.
It is only when you look behind
that you are able to determine the extraordinary.
Who would have thought one piece of fruit could change the world?
But it did.
I stand before you today,
To give an account of my actions.
I do not ask forgiveness,
I do not seek to justify,
Instead,
I stand before you today,
A Mother,
who seeks to help her children to understand.
.
My name is Eve.
Much has been said of my choices,
Many accusations made, all by none who knew me.
Most humans make lousy choices,
Most however, do not impact the world.
My story is not my own, for it includes all of you as well,
And it is one of shame, and sadness –
as it is the story of a life,
and life is not easy,
but yet –
it is still a gift.
It is a Mother’s heart that compels me to tell the tale,
To bind a wound, to bridge a fracture, to mend a broken heart.
Imagine, if you can, which you almost certainly can not –
A world of no despair,
or toil
or loss,
A world where from the ground sprang forth life.
No exhausting labor, no strife,
a land of plenty –
sadness unknown.
This is the garden where we lived,
this was our home.
It is a sad fact that we humans most often never appreciate what we have,
until it is gone.
My companion,
how I adored and loved him,
but ever so simple was he.
Adam, my husband, to whom I was given to help,
as it is not good for man to be alone.
Together we loved, we laughed, we watched the sun rise and set.
The creatures were our friends,
and we could never have imagined
what it would be like to have a care in the world –
As our world only cared for us.
No enemy did we know.
I would look to the stars though, and wonder;
I would say to Adam,
do you not wonder what is beyond the garden?
where our Father goes when He is away?
Adam did not wonder at such things,
and would laugh at my whimsies.
How grand it would have been, had I known then,
that it was curiosity killed the cat.
But it is only through a glass darkly that we feeble mortals see.
It was the Snake that introduced our destruction.
He knew of my questions,
he seized upon my curiosity,
and he came to me when I was alone;
“Did God command you not to eat of any tree in the garden?”
I knew the Snake,
he was my friend,
for no foe was to be found in the garden,
Deception and distrust were unknown to me.
“God told us to eat from all trees in the garden, except for the fruit of the tree in the middle of the garden.
For God said to us: ‘You must not eat from it, nor touch it, or you will die’.”
Then, my friend the Serpent
planted his seed of doubt –
and became the Father of all lies;
“You will surely not die.
For God knows that on the day you eat of that tree
your eyes will be opened!
You will be like gods and know good from evil”
When I looked at the tree, it was pleasant to my eye –
when I picked the fruit, I did not die.
My mind raced,
could the Serpent be right?
To be like gods, to know what was beyond the stars,
this was my heart’s desire.
As my teeth sank into the sweet flesh,
the flood of knowledge nearly brought me to my knees –
The knowing,
a burden to great to bear.
My heart broke at the understanding,
My shame laid naked for all,
I covered myself with a fig leaf and sought out Adam.
No argument needed, no apologetic speech, no craft or cunning –
I handed the fruit to my husband and said “eat”,
and he did.
Then came our Father, to the garden,
where He found our innocence, our paradise – lost.
God cursed the Serpent and is forever angry with it,
as we are now at war.
God was angry with me,
because I had listened to the serpent and said;
“I will greatly multiply your sorrows and your pains.
In sorrow you will bring forth children.
You will return to your husband,
who will rule over you.”
To Adam He said;
“Because you listened to your wife’s voice and ate from the tree I commanded you not to touch, let the ground be cursed under you.
Thorns and thistles will grow in it, and you will eat your bread in the sweat of your face until you return to the earth from which you were taken.
You are earth and to earth you will return.”
It was then,
that the first sacrifice of life on earth was made,
to cover our sin.
Adam now ruled over me,
as men have ruled over the daughters of Eve in our world since.
Patriarchal domination, just one part of the curse we endure.
Examine all the history of the ages since, and I would ask –
do you not see the effect of this curse in
the physical, spiritual and social state of all womankind?
And why?
Because I wanted to KNOW.
The purpose, the meaning, the more –
men now boast of their knowledge,
but it is because women were bold enough to seek it,
that they have acquired any of it at all.
From you, my children,
I seek no forgiveness today, nor restoration of my own reputation,
I also will not turn the subtle Snake into the Scapegoat.
As, you see,
From the first moment of creation
Free Will has ever reigned,
While my behavior was the response to treachery and deception,
I still had the right, and will, to choose,
and choose I did.
Instead of forgiveness,
I beg you to consider the human condition.
“Return, you children of men”
cries the voice of heaven,
for all those willing to listen and
who have the ears to hear.
The knowledge we have is a double edged sword,
one our Father would have preferred we did not yield,
but willful children we are –
and so now the war wages on.
Knowledge, a dark gift, but a gift my children –
Wield it as you will.
But know, it’s very price, was life itself.
REFERENCE
Barnstone, W. (1984). The other bible. San Francisco, CA: Harper & Row. (p.12, 13, 15) The Book of Jubilees, (p.36) Haggadah